Reasons? A few things have come up:
So… I’m just going to be using the sites as they are for now. I did make a good deal of progress on arruku-art, but it’s had to be left unfinished for now.
Reference Pool will still be delayed since that requires more wrist/finger movement than I can currently tolerate. I don’t want it to leave it hanging like that, but I have no choice currently :C.
A cute comic on being agendered.
(Yet again, another reminder that I seriously live in a bubble because the way people can act so ignorantly towards things like this is something I’m hardly aware of.)
I’ve never seen a comic about gender resonate so much. Gender has always been confusing because for as long as I can remember, I’ve never had an actual grasp of what gender is. I always forget my role within gendered society. Sometimes I think about childhood and forget I was assigned female. It’s like I’ve been a blank slate all my life.
I don’t mind being called cis— in nearly all ways I function as a cis female in society. I have a ton of cis privilege because of this, obviously. Currently I present in a feminine way (but this hasn’t always been the case). People use she/her pronouns and see me as female and identify me as female. I’m perfectly fine with that. There’s no reason they wouldn’t, honestly. I don’t think I’m cis, but I don’t think I’m trans* either. I feel guilty (and wrong) identifying as trans* because I don’t experience any of the societal oppression that comes with being trans*, I don’t feel dysphoric, and I don’t feel the need to change my body in any way. (In fact, if anything I’ve always felt oddly DETACHED from my body, or extremely apathetic towards it in that regard.) Does anyone have insight on this? If you’re agender, do you really fall into ANY binary (the general male vs. female binary OR the “binary” of cis or trans*)? If there were a Venn diagram, one circle being “cis,” and one circle being “trans*,” and the intersection being non-binary/genderqueer identities, would the “agender” identity be in a separate circle out in the distance by itself? I went through a lot of confusion about what my gender was/is, and upon giving-the-hell-up I’ve become more comfortable with not having an internal gender compass. If anything, my core operating system is gender null, but the fancy decorations I put on myself, presently, are feminine. I thought maybe I was gender-fluid, but that never resonated as true to me because I always understood that as having a gender one way or another. Surely gender identity can’t be so superficial as to basically depend on what clothing I wear and how I present myself. (Note: I feel it’s superficial because I’ve never felt one gender or another, therefore I clung to “gender-fluid” only because sometimes I changed my appearance, and it seemed disingenuous to identify as gender-fluid on that basis alone.)
What it comes down to is that I don’t have first-hand experience of what “gender” means, and I think that’s where all my “gender confusion” is coming from. It’s hard/impossible to understand something so intrinsic to people’s identities when you don’t have one yourself.
This is just my personal insight on it, to my personal gender-or-not-gender. Obviously I’m not talking about anyone’s experiences with gender, theirs or anyone else’s. I think this comic gets it right, for me, in the sense that being gender-void doesn’t affect my day-to-day life. For me, it’s just a weird and confusing thing when I think about it too much. (And that in and of itself is a privilege— it not mattering, that is.) I wish there were more agender people with whom to discuss this, though. It’s such a personal subject, and so complicated. How I identify, however, is a lesbian woman, because that’s reflective of how I’ve grown up and the struggles I’ve experienced and experience by simply living my life. I identify that way because that’s how I feel comfortable identifying. Oddly enough, identifying “female” seems weird. Like…what?
I am curious: if you’re without a gender, are you cis, trans*, or something else?
Agender in my experiences lies outside those, and I feel pretty much the same way.
Personality wise, I tend to demonstrate a near-equal amount of masculine and feminine traits, but neither matter and I’ve never felt close or particularly relatable to either genders, nor do I feel uncomfortable or care about my sex (male).
To say I’m one of the guys doesn’t match up, because I haven’t really known or really seen a guy who feels or acts the same way I do. Men just feel like some strange ‘other’ group and so are women for as long as I can remember. When I hear people talk about the differences between men and women, I just draw a blank. I see it all around me and I understand it to a degree by comparing what I see and hear, but never from my own experiences of it.
Those things kinda misled me into thinking that lacking masculinity as much as other guys was a bad thing at one point. Finding out that agender/androgyny existed helped me realise that I was just different and not identifying as male made me considerably more comfortable, although I’ve still gotta make some strides to really be psychologically at ease.
Androgynous is an umbrella term for people who are either in-between or are agendered and there are some cool articles and places on it, like here: http://androgyne.0catch.com. I haven’t done much research yet, but I’m sure there are more specific resources out there for agender.
I tended to ride with the term ‘androgynous’ because I prefer the way it sounds and I like the ambiguity, although I think after discovering ‘agender’ in that comic I may prefer going with that as it lacks the pre-existing cultural connotations and it also expresses my detachment. I think I need to do more research on the matter for various reasons.
Hope that helps in some way :).
Fuck, gotta stay up all night to reset my sleeping pattern back to nocturnal after multiple failed attempts all week. I’ve got 7 hours to go, as much coffee as I want/need, a PlayStation and a copy of Final Fantasy VIII. Maybe this will be enough e_e.
My cat is still trying to talk to birds. And she always happens to do it at MY window :L.
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If I find anymore I will keep updating this.
No I’m not a “feminist” don’t get all uptight. There’s nothing wrong with being one though, I don’t get why people view it in such a negative way.
Feminism really isn’t a bad word as people make it out to be, all feminism means is advocating women’s rights for the sake of equality, yet people use it as a bad label like if someone is a feminist, they’re just some angry man-hater.
Even though the term has its roots back in the day where men and women were the only genders, etc. and now we have multiple issues of equality springing up, In that dictionary definition, I’d consider myself a feminist :).
I think the two issues with the word feminist is that firstly it’s just suggesting you’re supporting one gender, as you mentioned other genders have issues, so why specify that you’re routing for a specific gender rather then all of them.
The main issue I think is the differences between sex negative and sex positive feminism is not clear to everyone. The word feminism has drawn in slowly more negativity as media coverage that goes viral is labeled as equal rights rather then feminism, meanwhile the more negativity viewed group are left alone with the word who throw it in the tumblr name or in every sentence.
Saying I’m a feminist doesn’t make me just a feminist. Like when someone says they’re one thing or another, for instance if I say that I’m androgynous and asexual (which I am), these things don’t account for all of my identity, these are just facets, like feminism would be an aspect of my ideology.
I do agree with the sentiment behind the term, and I would rather say that I’m simply for the equality of every human being rather than a feminist + ____ + ____, but if anyone asked me if I was a feminist in a relevant discussion, then I would say yes based on it’s core meaning.
The word itself has core implications which suck but at the same time, I hate anyone who implies that people who advocate women’s rights are unreasonably unhappy, and that attitude is often indicative of these equality issues we have today, hence the reblog.
I’m not exclusively a feminist, and I would definitely rather use another word, but based on what it is, I don’t think people should feel uncomfortable with it.